Wednesday, May 25, 2011

well, people said that words are sharper than swords, ^^

Salam alaikum;
Hallo there, people.
As you can see- ^^- from the left tab below, ^^, the number of followers ^^ for this particurlar blog ^^, have somehow, miraculously ^^ adds up to...^^ more than 100!!
Ha-ha. Which is, well, nothing to brag on exactly, considering the fact that there are millions of people out there whom have two or three blogs and all of them manage to score more than a thousand followers in one single post in one single day.
So, 100 for the blogging world would be..umm...well, nothing much.

But, being immature and all, Cokelatchip and I was over the moon with this achievement. For us, being able to actually reach the three digit is a, well, you can call it a success, we even went out celebrating with Kyros Kebab and all (actually, she just wanted to return my books she've been borrowing for weeks, but who cares?)
Reminiscing back to the days on how this blog was actually formed, I came to realize it was pretty drastic exactly. It all started back then to a day where Cokelatchip and I was in this one classroom, discussing about random topics bla bla bla, and like fate or something, we started talking about Palestine. I couldn't remember what it was about but, I knew for sure, that it must have been pretty heartbreaking as there were tear flows along the with the line of words we formed.
And came exactly that night, we created a blog. The first post was in Malay, or rather bahasa rojak kinda Malay and the terms we used to address ourselves in the posts were ana, antum (LOL!) which totally goes beyond the way we really are. With one posts after another, the ana antum vanished and so does the Malay words..(not that we have anything against it, okay...)
We just became ourselves, and the posts became sincerer that way. We felt more attached to some of the things we voice out, and did our best to put thoughts into words. Man, it was hard.
Because somehow or other, we're not genuinely bloggers ourselves. We're not the kind of girl that posts on a daily basis and know how to exactly string a word together in less than a minute. Unlike, some of my friends, (total salute to them) of course, they blog almost everyday and their every words are addictive; you crave to know more. Some people, they blog one once a week. And for us, however, well lets just say, Cokelatchip and I didn't set up a timeline on when exactly do we have to post. And so, the blog doesn't become a burden but just merely a place where we could actually voice out our opinions to humankind of all ages that possess the internet line.

And yes, sometimes, having such blog becomes an issue in your life. Cokelatchip once asked me if I was feeling what she felt; hypocritical.
Well,.....-.-" of course, I do. I feel it all the time I write down a post. Like, there I was, posting on how the next generation is going to make a change, how Islam shouldn't be mistaken as a religion that promotes terrorism, how Allah is looking at the effort of the muslims and all and yet; undeniably, there are times that I doubt whether or not I am actually the ideal person to be writing about such topic. Honestly, if you know me, you know me. I'm 'that' compared to ..'that' (with angelic cues on the background noise).
So yes, I do feel pretty hypocrite sometimes. ^^

And there would be times, when people would just dare to give you negative remarks straight on to you like it didn't actually matter how you'd feel (not that I was any dramatic about it either). I remembered a friend of mine saying out loud about her opinion on people who loves to exaggerate the big stuff and forget to look at the small, miniature things we often neglects. I didn't get her at first, but when I did, it hit me like a big slap on the face. Her words were pretty glassy. It goes like.

"Kite Palestine sane, Palestine sine, pom pang sane, pom pang sini, yang orang dalam Malaysia sendiri marane, kite tak kisah pulak. Ade orang tak cukup makan, tak boleh pergi sekolah..Ade yang hidup merempat, tu kita tak nak crita."

which simply would have meant (honestly, I just dont do direct translation), "Why can't we just sometimes look at the situation in our own country where there are also people at the verge of dying? There are people here in Malaysia with no food, no education, no home and yet, we don't even talk about them."
(roughly, the Malay version sounded glassier)
And at that time she was saying it, I was just right there feeling OUCH..that hurts. Eventhough, of course, she must have not mean to like offend me or anything.
Not that I was much offended or demotivated at all, because, yeah, she has a point, somehow.

And there were times where I, personally, would also take this blog pessimistically. It usually happens when I blogwalk (which is a term used when you jump from a blog to another one based on the link provided from one or few of the other blogs you opened earlier). I would be reading posts after posts of what a person do in his or her life and I'd be very much amused by how interesting and fun their days always seems to be. Even if, you know, like they don't do anything much but some of their relatives just happen to drop by or something, I'd love to read it anyway because their link says I-AM-ROCKING-COOL-MAYBE or S.E.C.R.ET Diary of a PRincess or HARDCORE girl in DILEMMA which all to me, sounded, wow~catchy
And here I am, having ALAQSAARMY and PALESTINE..OURSLike, who'd read that?
*bangs head on the table, giggles alone*

yeah, maybe we should change it TWO ROCKING COOL GIRLS'S SECRET DIARY DILEMMA, then we might actually have more people reading the posts ^^..Oh God~

..will the blog's header look likes this?

So, yes, creating this blog has been quite a something that fills in our life.
Then again,
We don't write in this blog to show how much we know (which exactly isn't that much) or to brag on our concern or to potray to the world the kind of girl we are (I've told you how I am not yet 'that good girl' I should have been). Nor is it because we don't care about what's happening in our own country (we do, for God sake, we do!) or that we lead an extremely boring life that no one would read even if we actually make a blog about it (hey,hello...).

It's true that we're not that exactly perfect enough to be typing down things that are rated islamic and religion and most importantly, Palestine, but the thing that kept us going was the fact that we know that>> we're never gonna be perfect. And if we wanna wait till that one day where we have some PhD or u know, a few qualifications from the world that says we're good enough, it would take forever and we don't live 'forever'. Come tomorrow marks another day, and I doubt it that I'd be better everyday. I may get worse. I may lose interest, I'd get busy or I don't know...the point is,
I chose today because I live today.
Being me and only me, a person who is still learning.

Sod the fact that we don't memorize every verse of the Quran, or that we can't quote a Hadith without making a mistake.
There will always be something that we lack of and if we choose to stress upon our weak side, we ain't going anywhere.

And I'm telling you, that's the biggest reason why Palestine can't be free until today. The mindsets of Muslims at this era is so different from how it was years and years ago. Today, people would give excuses all along, like "it's not my thing yet" or.."i'm not good enough" or.."well, i dont wanna be seen as an extremist, coz i'm not"...and all..
and I don't blame them. I've felt pretty much the same all the time.

I'm a human too.
I crave for what human desire and I crave for human's blessing. Often times, I'd look at what human would think than what Islam would.
Often times, I compromize~
And I regret that, of course.

So, if Cokelatchip and I are not perfect enough and we claim to have a super-duper interesting life, then why do we write in here? Why Palestine?

Because it's the least we could do.
And the least we could answer to Him. For the time being.
If I would love for the opression to stop, for Palestine to be free, for Islam to unite, I might as well do something than just lay behind my back, doing nothing.
We may be not good enough, but at least, we're trying.

I'm 18. Cokelatchip's 18. And we might die at 18. We don't know.

by: FaithHana. (A real post on Nakbah Day coming soon, sorry ^^)
Thanks again to the followers! You guys might not know this but by that simple click of public following, you have boosted our spirits like totally zooommm! thanx yo!

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Ignorance is not bliss

Salam alaikum,

Yep, the holiday is getting to an end alright~
(Should I put a smiley there at the end or what? No, I guess, no.)

I mean, come on. Who can deny that this has been the fabbest holiday ever? You wake up in the morning with sunshine (ehem..), you get to finally learn how to drive (yippie!), you can actually roam around with your friends and have real fun not having to worry about the upcoming exam by the time the holiday ends...(double yippie!) and you get to learn stuffs you thought you'd never be able to have the time in the world to.. (yip..yip..-.-").

holidays are just too fab for words..and well, I bet one to ten that you guys have been reading blogs after blogs of holiday adventures of other people out there, not to mention the number of spaghetti bridge MARA interview experiences (yep, like thousands of them) , reviews of the royal wedding bla bla bla...
so, dear blogwalkers,
let's now get down to the isolated issue, shall we?
One that people (and sometimes I) would prefer, to ignore.
One that well, we know it's important, but we just...(this is the time you lay out 50 excuses. go on, start..)
One that has no catchy songs, breakdances or plasticsurgery actors in it..
But for most of all, One that is reality.

The ongoing issues of Palestine.

Sounds like some pick-up line from an old history book, right? Well, yeah, I know. I mean, come on, I'm a teenage too okay. I know what it feels like to read an article of some hot gossips on one famous celebrity on a hollywood stand. I know the twinge of excitement you get as you discuss dramas and the rush you feel when you hear goood, touchy songs. And I
know that once you see, alaqsaarmy.blosgpot, you'd thought, this one's heavy...

And, bingo!
You're right. It is heavy. This issue is kinda hard to digest and I don't blame you if you feel so much uninterested by the topics laid upon by me and Cokelatchip. Hands now, no offence taken.

But, well, lets face it shall we. We can't run away. Sooner or later, the happy days are gonna be over. One day, if God wills us to still be alive, we are all gonna be grandpas and grandmas and old people with wrinkles and go senile between words, we don't even notice we're talking craps. We're gonna have to sit at a corner and watch the generations after us do all the business and see things unfold slowly. And at that time, it might not be too late to make ourselves fell in love with the issue, but to make a change like we all dream for, now that that takes energy and
well, wrinkles and energy are sadly not parallel.

So, why don't we just, you know, get to know it little by little. I mean, I'm not asking you to be an extremist hard-core or anything. Cokelatchip and I are barely hardcore ourselves. We just happen to know some stuff, to want to give some of our own personal opinions and to want to dream big. That's it. We don't write down letters to Obama or Benjamin; no..we're not yet to that stage (hakhak..). We're just sharing around the message and hopefully, one day, by all means, people could actually be aware that there's this piece of land here in this world starting with a P and ends with a ALASTINE that as stated in the Quran as well as the Prophet's Hadith is the responsibility of the Muslims to take care of. And right at this minute as I'm typing this, it is slowly disappearing to....less than even 1% of the original area.


And, I know it;s something that everyone knows. In fact, the world knows about it. How the Israelis soldier are dead cruel and how the oppressions are beyond human rights and all, but, well, when you hear that only once a year, it sounds almost less important than it should have been.
What's more important in the eyes of the world is..
something like, 9/11 maybe...

I mean, okay, I know, it's a big deal. It's sad. Innocent people just died suddenly. And until today, well, espescially today, since they come up with news that they've killed Osama bin Laden and all, people just couldn't stop talking about it. I watched Oprah with J.K Rowling episode once and they mentioned 9/11 and the bizarre incident where the two towers of the WTC just collapsed. I watched Yuna Inspired on and even that had a segment on which they talked about 9/11 and all the fear that wrapped New Yorkers on that day. I watched an episode of The Good Wife and...(okay, now I do sound like a potato couch..)...T_T

It's 2011 and it has been nearly ten years since that incident happen. And I don't have to tell you how many experts have come up with the revealing proofs that it wasn't like what the news said it was. It was also nothing subjected to terrorism and unsurprisin
gly, it was also not planned by the Iraqis as it was claimed to be so.

And yet, years later come today, and today, as soon as they announce that the leader of the al-Qaeda is dead, they go on harping again about islamic terrorism and how everybody that wear scarves have bombs under their blouses. -.-"

Well, I have no comment regarding Osama coz I don't even know if he did really exist, let alone, died. And whatmore, from the moment they announced it on the news that he was dead, I 've practically stayed away from CNN coz I could already guess what's gonna come up on the screen and the big fat lies all up ahead for the million viewers worldwide...
And I can't help but to think...

that yes, 9/11 is a huge, humoungous issue.
It's they put it, totally unfair, its a grief and all..
and I have to admit, listening to the stories of the witnesses and families of the deceases are also pretty much heartbreaking..
you know...

today, there's no bombing at New York. And there are no walls surrounding the city. Nor are they oppressed under any other powers that were just supposed to be the neighboring country. 9/11 remained 9/11 the way it was. no further addition.

And if you just look at Palestine today, you can't help but to wonder, if it was just you, or the world is really weird at some point.

Palestine have been oppressed for 50 years until today and the disastrous happenings are much much worse that the falldown of World Trade Centre in 2001.
The houses are being bombed constantly, the roads are filled with checkpoints and armed soldiers, the women are raped, the guys are shot unnecessarily, the educations are banned, the technologies are as much limited, the food are not enough, the medication is even worse and when they fight back it's called terrorism..

I bet if the New Yorkers stood up for protecting their rights, they won't be called terrorists, huh.

Palestinians faced five times the horror of WTC collapse..EVERYDAY~
I take it that there were no twin towers in Palestine, big enough to be bombed and collapsed down to the earth. And even if there were the same, exact twin tower collapsing at Palestine today, no one would know. And even if we do know, it's not America or U.K, it's a middle-east country, so why bother.

Yep, media~ screw you, media.
Like, hello..
Islam is not a religion of terrorism.
Israel have been killing and slaughtering and raping and all, and still people don't call the jews terrorist. why? because the media never writes that down.
so, see?
they control, we follow.
But we're smart, aren;t we? and we're the next generation. that hopefully, started today, passing the so call-heavy message on from one to another and tomorrow, we might be able to get back what's our responsibility in the right way.

And like I've mentioned before in one of my previous post, we're media ourselves...
we write down blogs, we note down status in fbs and twitters..

It's entirely up to us, basically. To be in the game. Or to go against it.
We can make a difference. We're the next generation.

May Allah bless the journey. Amin..

It's 3 a.m sharp (^O^). good night, everyone.

By: FaithHana